#004- Following feelings or logic in work.
I am someone who needs to “hustle” whether this is in volunteer work for FLYP Mixers or trying to make content for Hustlers Mediations, I want to do more and be really great and give my all in my work. I know I am smart and determined enough to be really good at what I believe in. Now my Job right now is honestly not something I am 100% passionate about. Its a great job with good hours and great pay, I just don’t feel that excitement to go to work everyday. Knowing no matter how much I learn or how late I stay doesn’t matter, there is some pros to this as well materialistic items, my own place, fashion, generosity, not having to worry about where food will come from.
I just don’t feel the pride and satisfaction of knowing everyday I am working towards my goal of owning my own business and creating my own living without having to rely on a company paycheck. The freedom that comes with knowing you are your own boss, you can leave whenever you want to but something in you just doesn’t want to leave, so passionate about something that the money, the materialistic items , I have now wont compare to the feeling of knowing I earned this money the way I wanted to. The freedom of knowing you can rely on yourself.
When I was a full time real estate agent , I did not make any sales, but for some reason I loved it the process of it and working to get better at it. I loved the feeling of having my own routine and this feeling that I could make something new happen that day. It challenged me to think of ways to become better, to be creative, and find passion.
Now I cant only talk negative about this current job because it has also gave me confidence it other ways. The confidence of having my own place and knowing I earned this position. Blessed to be in this spot but this nagging feeling that I need to bet on myself again. Because Ill be honest I only had this smoking weed and social media addiction and this feeling that I need to make a job change when I work a “normal job” when I worked at save mart and now working at Trumark homes. Taking a risk got me here. Betting on myself brought me confidence.
“If you scared to take a chance, how the fuck we gon' get rich?” J. Cole- Fire Squad
